Getting Back to Reality

or having to think about work again! Visited my work this afternoon to get more details of what they want me to do come January...got a timetable but no hard info on what I'm supposed to be doing in those times -really not looking forward to going back :(

On a more positive note DD seems to be settling in OK in nursery - not eating a huge amount but then not doing that at home either but definitely happier in the baby room and not as clingy to the nursery nurses. She missed one of her days this week as she added a croupy cold onto the cold which has been bothering her for over a week. Poor wee thing has no appetite and just looked miserable today. We went to the doctor yesterday and she said her chest was clear, so fingers crossed that the cough will clear up in the next few days.

Off to a crop tomorrow - really looking forward to it - have put together a secrest santa and praying that the recepicent actually likes it! I'm so bad at choosing presents.

Bad Parents

That's how it felt putting DD into nursery this morning - the irony is, of course, she was fine, I was the one getting all upset. Probably because I now have to face the prospect of going back to work..which is not filling me with joy at the moment.

She was only in for 2 hours ( how melodramatic am I being about this? I know) but I was in tears when we picked her up. She had been relatively fine - had a couple of crying bouts, hadn't eaten alot of lunch but wasn't too distressed when we picked her up. The thing is, she will get used to the new faces and she is ok with me going away and coming back...the killer (for me any way) is the fact it will be 8am til 5.30 pm...which at the moment feels like a very long day for a wee babbie.


Mantra for the day..."We are not bad parents for putting DD in nursery..we are not bad parents......"

Bl**dy Airport Security!

Have been down visiting friends in England - flying for the first time with DD. Annoyed as had to open and taste the cartons of formula that I had taken with us...to prove they were not a security risk. Fine except that it immediately comtaminates the milk, which then has to be used in an hour. How people are flying long haul with these daft regulations is beyond me.

Other than that had a great weekend, catching up with my best friend and her family. very relaxing and cheered me up no end. DD starts nursery tomorrow so a big day for her,,,keeping our fingers crossed that it will go ok.

Signed up for this - my advent treat to myself :)

Manifesto: Noun. A declaration of one’s intentions.

Starting December first, I will keep a Christmas journal. In it, I will write something every day to reflect on the holidays of my past, enjoy the holidays of the present and dream about the holidays of my future. To some, this will be a stack of papers and trivial scribbles, but not to me. I am taking back my Christmas, I am letting it be something I relish and, most importantly, I am giving at least fifteen minutes every day to myself no matter how crazy this season becomes. I hope you will share, encourage and understand as I make something with my own hands, my own words and my own memories.

Back to Work

Had an appointment today with my boss to discuss my return to work - basically what I'd been expecting, so no nasty (new) surprises - will have to go in again in a couple of weeks to get up to speed with what I'll be doing in January.

Can't really get my head around going part time - I've worked part time before in this environment and and to be blunt...it sucked. Hoping it will be different this time as have a new focus and have been there for a while full time too.

Packing tonite for our trip tomorrow - flying down to Bristol to visit a friend. Will be DD's first flight, so should be interesting......